The end of 2011

I thought I would do a monthly recap of 2011 the good, the bad, the ugly.

January - Jeff (Jan. 9) and his Grandma's birthday
February - My great-Aunt Nancy dies (Feb 5) , I turned 40 (Feb 9) , I also got the flu worst I have felt in quite awhile.
March - Jeff and I got married (March 18)
April - Easter!
May - I ran  half-marathon (while pregnant and didn't know it!)
June - we found out we were pregnant
July - I miscarried on July 3.  Myrtle Beach vacation, Addie's first birthday
August - Runnergirl Consulting LLC started! My grandparents turned 87 & 88!
September - hmm, home improvements in full swing to prepare for a move
October - Jeff started his new job in Columbus. Kendyl Marie was born, we signed papers to build a house!
November - House listed 'For Sale"
December - Another wonderful Christmas...

Ring-Ring...Ring-Ring

So the other night, I was in bed watching TV sleeping at 9:30pm My cell phone began ringing.  Now if you know me you know I have the bedtime of a second grader, so I knew the call had to be important.  I answered and it was my OB.  He said that he was int he office trying to catch up on paperwork and for some reason he kept thinking of me so he decided to call and get an update.  I told him that there was really no change on my part.  He said he would like to run some lab work again and do some new stuff as well.  So when our new insurance kicks in Jan 1, I will be calling to get the ball rolling!  2012 is the year of the baby!!!

Also, can I  just brag on the doctor.  How many doctors do you know that would just randomly call to check in on you???  I feel such at peace with him.  I will be so sad to leave him when I move but I know that I will be in good hands there too as my cousin has hand picked a doctor for me there! 

Presents

I entered to win a contest here.  I actually won!  I never win anything, so I was super, super excited.  Then when I came home and saw a box on my front porch, and realized it was something I could open and use (rather than a Christmas gift which really, I just get to wrap) Oh, was I excited!!!!

I received a Houndstooth scarf with sparkle!  I love it and I have already worn it once and received compliments!  (Love that!)

Houndstooth Earrings super adorable.  I can't wait to wear them.

a Chica band - it is a headband that allegedly doesn't slide off.  I will be wearing this for my long run tomorrow!

and Essie nail polish.  I painted my toes already but my feet are not worthy of a picture.  (Trust me)

I was/ am so excited about my gifts!  Thank you again Rachel!  ROLL TIDE!

I came across Rachel's blog one day, I am not even sure how...but she helped get me back on the wagon!  My running had been taking a backseat to life and I remembered how much I enjoyed running when I first started.  I think I did too much that year.  Yeah four marathons in one year really took its toll on me.  I also forgot how to eat properly.  I was eating crap and I began to put my weight back on.  Well, I started the running again and as of January 2, I am back on the good food plan.  I am not sure if I am going to join WeWa agin.  I should because I know it works! 

CHRISTmas Tour of Homes

I am linking up with Kelly for her Holiday Tour of Homes.  We are in the process of moving.  I was told it was best to not decorate too much for the holiday.  I tried to put out simple decorations without much personalization...

Our tree.  I keep fussing with the topper.  We had a simple silver star, but I really didn't like it...so I tried to be creative!

I really like the HOPE sign, it has a nativity scene on the O.  The table was my Grandma's

The table under the stairs.  

My mantle, I really like my simple mantle - with my D0llar $tore candles and my coffee filter wreath!

I am really happy with my dining room!  I think it is so fun and festive!

Table Runner that my Grandma made!

I can't wait to decorate our new house for Christmas next year, but I am really happy with our simple decorations this year.  I am glad I did what I did!

Intervals

Let's talk running!

This morning, Yvonne and I ran.  We decided to do a speed workout.  We started doing the 1:1, then sitched to a one minute jog, one minute sprint, one minute walk.  We did four cycles of that.  We finished the 5k feeling great.  I have felt great all day!

Then, I came home and found a package on my porch!  I was so excited!  It was a package for me.  A contest I won a contest from a blog a follow...pictures to follow!!!

Damn, Bitch

Well, As a girl who temps everyday at 4:30am, as soon as I saw my temp had dropped, I knew the bitch was on her way.  Aunt Flo started today.  I have to say I had several thoughts.  First I was pissed that I am not pregnant.  Second I was relieved because this should push an ovulation date back to a weekend, since that is the only time baby making can happen Friday evening through Monday morning. :)
Third, I just wonder when I am going to be blessed with a baby.  I'm trying to be patient, but it really isn't a strong virture of mine.

I know it is all in HIS time not MINE!

Needless to say I will be having a few bottles  glasses of wine this holiday season! :)

The saga continues...

Last I left, I still hadn't gotten Aunt Flo.  And still haven't gotten a positive pregnancy test.  Well, everything is still the same.  I am now three days late (which never happens) and I got a negative on a HPT.  I am so frustrated.  I want to be pregnant SO badly, but I just know I am not.  I know that B*tch is gonna rear her ugly head soon...let's just get it over with, so I can move on.  I am supposed to call the dr tomorrow for blood work and hopefully see the dr.

Pictures

Me holding Miss Kendyl!  Such a sweet chunky monkey!

Miss Adeline finding Brady's leash but ending up taking Uncle Jeff for a walk!

 This was from a few weeks ago, when we first met Kendyl Marie

Jeff with Kendyl

Testing Day

I didn't test today because I tested yesterday.  It was a BIG FAT NEGATIVE.  I am sad but also confused.  My temps are still up so I supposed I could be pregnant.  "They" whoever they are say if you have high temps for 16 days past Ovulation then you are most likely pregnant. I am day 15...so I guess we just wait and see.  Again I highly doubt I am pregnant, but boy would that be the greatest Christmas present ever!

I got up and ran 7 miles this am.  It was tough again. 

Our tree is deorated, the presents that I have are wrapped, waiting for more to be delivered...next weekend we will be finishing up! I need to review my list but I think we are in pretty good shape.

So...

It is another month.  I am not supposed to test until Sunday.  I am not sure if I am going to test or just wait and see what happens. I highly doubt I am pregnant at least based on temps and symptoms.  I feel very crampy and iritable.  If I were to be pregnant my due date WOULD be Aug 11.  That is the day after my brother, Nicholas' birthday!

Thanksgiving was tough.  I SO enjoyed seeing little Addie.  She is adorable and so fun at her age.  I also enjoyed seeing Kendyl..  She is such a little cuddlebug.  I enjoyed holding her. I was sad that I should be in my third trimester and getting ready for a baby shower. 

Oh well, I am trying not to dwell....just expressing my feelings

Where our new house will be.

 This is our lot number

These will be are neighbors in the back

This will be our front view, I think where the house will go!  I am so excited to get this ball rolling!

Well, we did it!

We went to Columbus to pick out all fixtures, flooring, siding...pretty much everything that is needed in a house.  I am SO excited.  I can't wait for the house to be ready!

We had an open house on this house on Sunday.  There were several people who came through.  I am still praying to St. Joseph for a quick sale.  I have to keep telling myself that the house has only been listed since Nov 2. 

I don't know how military moms do this.  Being away from Jeff is heartbreaking.  I miss him so much.  We count down days until we can see each other.  Having him away also makes the TTC process a little more difficult.

I do have pictures of our lot.  I will post them tomorrow.

Well, I guess I need to catch up again!

Jeff started his new job.  Him being away all week and us seeing each other only on weekends just plain sucks.  I went down to Columbus last weekend to look at houses.  And look at houses we did...houses that were used, needed carpet, needed paint, needed bigger bedrooms, needed a pantry.  These used houses were more expensive than building!  Really?  Yes.  We decided to build.  Our house will be just over 2000 square feet, full basement, 3 bedrooms, 2.5 bathrooms, HUGE Great room...lots of closet space, and a loft.  We are SO excited.  It should be ready in March.  Potentially we could move into our new home on our one year anniversary!

We have a new niece.  Kendyl Marie was born on October 30.  She is perfect.  We get to see her this weekend!

I am still not pregnant.  Although unless I can control when I ovulate,I am thinking we just have to put this in God's hands.  

Thursday

Today was Jeff's last day working in Pittsburgh.!!!!  Yeah!  We went out for Mexican once I got home.  Then we went to Target...We got some home decor...I can't wait to be done, painting this weekend.  Pictures to follow at some point this weekend.

My cousin, Justin is aOB/GYN resident at OSUMC.  He called me tonight to let me know he has hooked me up with a great doc.  I am excited!

Tomorrow we got get the new car.  Doesn't everyone go buy a new car when they are buying a new house?!?!?

CD 3 labwork

This post might be TMI for some so if you want to skip this blog...you ahead..if not you have been forewarned. 

Tomorrow will be cycle day 3 so I am going to get lab work done ot see if my eggs are still 'fresh' enough to be fertilized.  Then after giving several vials of blood I have to have a HSG test done.  I will schedule that tomorrow too.  (google it if you don't know how it goes...then tell me that doesn't sound fun...insert eye roll here)

Really, it shouldn't be this hard to have  baby..

BIG NEWS

No, I am not pregnant yet!

Our big news is that we are moving!  Jeff got a job in Columbus...so we are heading South a few hours.  We are really excited!  He starts his new job on the 24th.  We are pumped!!

Please pray that our house sells quickly and that we are able to find a new home quickly!  We are planning to have ours listed by next weekend!

Anyone have any moving tips??

WOW! October is Flying

I had my dr appointment last week.  If you don't want to read all the gory details you may want to skip this post!  I want to try to remember everything about the TTC and the hopeful pregnancy!

So, my appointment was at 10:00.  They called and asked me to come in a little earlier.  Okay.  So I get there and sign in and first they are doing some construction, so it was noisy.  Then a woman and her small child come in and  the child has a "See and Say"  I was going to lose my mind if I heard: "The Cow says MOOOO' one more blasted time.  If that wasn't bad enough, there was another woman talking so loudly and constant that I and everyone else in the waiting room knows her whole life story.  It was ridiculous.  So after waiting an hour and forty-five minutes.  I was called back.

The dr gave me some advice:  get an ovulation predictor kit and use all of the pee sticks. He doesn't think I am ovulating when I think I am.  He also said to be patient...but not too patient.  If I am not pregnant this cycle then I am supposed to have cycle day three testing and also an x-ray of my fallopian tubes.  Then based on those results we will see what is going on.

So I bought the OPK Friday and did the test and it was negative.  Saturday is was positive. :)  Sunday negative again. So, I am ovulating earlier than expected!  We will be testing on Oct. 16th.  (If I can wait that long.)

If I get the positive, that I am hoping beyond hope the due date would be June 23rd.   

An Update, Of Sorts

It is the end of September.  WOW!  How did it go by so fast?

I am on target to meet my 20 workouts for September.  It has really helped that I am meeting Karen and Yvonne in the wee hours of the morning to walk/run.

Last weekend was Amanda's shower.  It was hard, but I made it through with no tears.  You never know when they are going to come.

I found out last week that my running partner is pregnant.  While I am so happy for her, I am sad for me for two reasons...I lost my running partner AND I am not pregnant yet.

I have a doctor appointment on Friday, just to get a game plan.  I am not a patient person...I need a plan and I want to work the plan.  (just like training)

I am planning to do the Peace Race (10k) the end of October because, well, that is what I do.  I have done this race since at least 2005, maybe even 2004.  I like my track record!  

Week 2

Second week in on my mini challenge and I am 10/20.  I would be 11/20 but it was raining Thursday morning and cold.  So I took the day off.  I am hoping that my tummy clears up a little bit so I can head out for a run later.

On another note...
I am 9DPO and I took a pregnancy test and it is clearly negative.  I know that it is still really early to test but I can't help myself.  It tears my heart each test that is negative and yet I must test.  Each test is another heartache.  I just thought for certain that this month would be the one. 

One week in...

So, today marks seven days in September.  I have run or run/walked four days so far.  I have sixteen days left.  Totally do-able!

We had a busy weekend.  Saturday we went down to visit with Addie.  I can't believe how big and grown up she is now.  It has only been a month since we saw her.  Amazing. Sunday we went to Lowe's.  Bought ceiling paint and paint for the office.  So far we have the ceiling painted, and one coat of paint on the walls.  I hope to get the second coat on tonight then tomorrow paint the trim...Friday will be the cleaning and moving furniture back into place.  (By furniture, I mean, move some stuff around to make it look decent!)

Thirty Days has September...

So, I have decided to do a challenge of sorts.  I am currently not training for anything specific.  I need something to keep my resolve to workout/run.  I am always up for a challenge.  Here is is.  For the 30 days of September, I am going to attempt to workout 20/30.  I think that is reasonable.  I really wanted to do a 30/30 but I know I will want need a day off or two.  By my definition a 'workout' is at least 30 minutes...so a three mile run, a 30 minute swim...eliptidevil...you get the point...I gotta get back into a routine!!!

A weekend of updates

This past weekend Jeff and I went to Cinci for my baby cousin's (on my mom's side) 25th Birthday Party.  It was wonderful to see everyone.  My grandparent's were able to be there which made everyone very happy.

Grandpa & Chip

Erin, Chip, Billy & Me

Cousins/Siblings

Chip & Me (the top is flowy; but I need to lose weight too)

It was so good to see everyone!  I wish I would have grabbed a picture before my grandparents and my aunt left.

P.S. - this week I would be 16 weeks and finding out if we were having a Baby Girl or a Baby Boy, bummer to say the least.

 

Garage AFTER!

Garage BEFORE

Um, what to write about

This blog is supposed to be about my pregnancy and becoming a mom. Since I had a miscarriage the blog is about trying to get pregnant again, SO, you all will have to bear with me as I discuss what really is TMI.  I apologize in advance. 

I started back temping immediately after the miscarriage.  I have my alarm set for everyday at 4:30 AM.  I roll over and take my temp then roll back over and fall back to sleep!  I chart my temps on Fertility Friend and based upon temps it tells me when I might ovulate then it shows when I do ovulate. 

So, based upon past charts I 'should' have ovulated on Aug 16...Fertility Friend says I ovulated on August 13...I called the doctor and asked what I should do and I am going in to have labwork on Sunday CD21.  This will tell if I ovulated based upon progesterone levels. 

I am very excited to have this done as I feel that I am 'doing something' to move us closer to getting pregnant.

Interestingly, I am so tired this week.  The last time I was this tired is when I was pregnant, so who knows...maybe I am just trying to do to much this week.

Back to Reality

Well, vacation has been over for almost 2 weeks.  We are getting back into our 'normal' groove;  whatever that is.  We are trying to keep busy.  We are trying very hard to find a new job for Jeff and honestly, I am getting excited for fall to be here.  Football, pumpkin spice lattes, the crisp cool air.  Hoping and praying that I will be pregnant again soon!

Y Youth Triathlon

My friend's daughter Kendell, who is five competed in the YMCA Youth Triathlon.  The events distances were by age.  For the five year olds they had to swim the width of the pool, bike 1/2 mile and then run 1/4 a mile.  These kids were so awesome! 
I didn't see Kendell do the swim as the pool deck is very crowded and I didn't want to be in the way.

After the swim and headed to T1

                                                                           Here is K now on her way out for her half mile bike ride!

Out of T2 and on her 1/4 mile run!  At this point, I am fairly certain that she is in first place over all for her age group and absolutely in first place for girls!

Heading to th finish chute!  GO GIRL!!!!

K and her hardware!

A hug from little sis and the day is complete!

Two weeks

I SO wish I wre typing that I was 9 weeks 5 days...but alas, I am 2 weeks post miscarriage.  I have periods of where I forget and then when I remember the sadness overtakes me.  I am trying so hard not to swell on everything that happened and just look toward the future.

This week was a week of just getting stuff done.  We leave for vacation in 6 days.  The next 6 days are going to be BUSY!  A good busy!  Yesterday we went over to the outlet mall and got some clothes for Jeff to take on vacation.  {I also got a coach purse}  we went to dinner at Primanti's.  Which brings me to another topic...I now weigh more post pregnancy than I did while pregnant! 

THIS. MUST. CHANGE.

I haven't really had the desire to work out or eat properly at all.  I have hd no interest in cooking - healthy or otherwise.  Tomorrow I will get into the groove. 

Now, I am going to go get ready to see the Y-tri {kid's version}  My friend , Meghan's daughter is articipating.  I am going to take pictures!  :)

More closure

Today I took down the Happy Fathers-day-to-be cards that Jeff got for Father's Day.  I also put way the Pregnancy journal that I had purchased.  I just can't deal with those items out anymore. 

My mom has a baby shower this weekend, so I took her to Babies R Us.  It was not fun, but I managed.  I told her to have an idea of what she wanted to get before getting there, so we weren't there too long.  I tried to not look around too much.

How Tu-Tu Cute!

Isn't she just the cutest little red-head?!?

Charlotte York

Today is sweet Addie's First Birthday Party.  I am truthfully in no mood to be around a group of people.  But I am excited to see Addie dive into the smash cake.  It dawned on my the other day that I would just be like Charlotte in Sex and the City.  If you remember Charlotte suffered a miscarriage and spent days in front of the tv in a state of depression.  She was watching E! True Hollywood Story Elizabeth Taylor.  Charlotte realized that in time of darkness, you have to overcome and get stronger.  So, I shall do just that!  Big gift and lots of pictures.

First Run

I went out for my first run post miscarriage.  It felt good to pound the pavement. I went to the hike/bike and I made no attempt to try to make a certain time.  I just ran.  I did a nice three miles and it felt good. 

It is interesting, I didn't have a whole lot of pregnancy symptoms except for exhaustion.  But now that I am no longer pregnant I feel 'empty'  I guess I felt more pregnant than I realized. 

Totally the right decision

So, I met with the new doctor today.  First, I had an ultrasound and the tech was wonderful.  She was very nice and explained everything very clearly. 

Then, I met with the nurse.  She went over office policies.  She said that when I would call, I would be transferred to the nurse then she would put the doctor on the phone.  SERIOUSLY, the doctor gets on the phone!!!  How awesome is that??? Then she said that they like to bring patients in to be seen, just to be sure there are no problems.  She said that way the doctor can sleep better at night!  WOW, you don't have to beg for an appointment! 

The doctor came in and spoke to Jeff and I for close to an hour.  He liked my diligence!  He sat and listened.  He will basically do whatever I want to keep me calm.  He also told me I could have caffeine.  HELLOOOOOO Starbucks - well, really Dunkin Donuts...my favorite...until Starbucks Pumpkin Spice comes back!

I feel so much better and I feel like this was absolutely the right decision. 

On a different note...I got a phone call from the baby killer and was asked WHY I was transferring.  Um...yeah. I said first I don't have to give them an answer...secondly...and I gave them an earful....after 20 years she couldn't squeeze me in but a doctor I had never seen before could see me.  That speaks volumes.

I am sad I had to go through this process, but I am so happy to have a doctor who is so understanding.

Now, let the games begin.  Oh, I can start running when I feel comfortable doing so!

New Beginnings

So, let me go back to Sunday when the doctor said called my office of Tuesday so that we can squeeze you in to be seen.  I called the office at 8:31.  When I got a call back from the nurse the soonest they could get me in was Thursday at 11.  (My original appointment for a repeat ultrasound).  When I asked for an appointment first thing so I wouldn't have to sit in a aiting room with pregnant women for up to 2 hours.  The nurse simply said ...um, nope, they can't get me in.

Needless to say, I was furious about this and couldn't believe that a doctor that I have gone to for 10+ years couldn't squeeze me in.  I am not one to call or demand an appointment unless it is a problem.  Other than this pregnancy, I am certain that I can count on one hand the number of times I actually called with a problem in 10+ years. 

My plan was to finish this pregnancy with the old doctor and then switch..well, now I had dcided that there was NO WAY, I could go back to that office.  There is no communication, there is no sympathy.  I just can't deal.

I called new doctor, and told my story and the nurse asked me to hold for a minute.  She quickly came back and I was told the doctor feel that you have to wait is unacceptable he is able to squeeze me in Wednesday...I will have an ultrasound and then have an appointment with the doctor.  A doctor I have never seen before is willing to help me out.  The office will call and get records and cancel all appointments.

I have a sense of relief, I feel like I have made the right decision for us and I am liking the idea that this doctor will listen to me and respond appropriately rather than brushing me off.

8 weeks

I should be eight weeks today.  That is two months.  In seven months I should have been waiting to see my baby.  Instead I sit here waiting to call the doctor so I can get a confirmation of a miscarriage.  I am not sure why I need confirmation since I know what happened.  I do NOT want a D&C.  From what I have read I would need to wait longer to start trying to get pregnant again.  I suffered through the weekend without medical intervention, therefore I do not want it now.  I can't wait for vacation in 18 days.  I need time away.

Why?

Why are miscarriages a taboo topic?  If one in three women has one then why isn't it a more discussed topic? Why shouldn't I tell people I had a miscarriage?  I saw a heartbeat, that means that there was a baby that died.  If a baby was born and had died that would certainly be discussed.  I know that there are no right words to say...but really the comments of 'you can try again' or 'it is for the best' are really pathetic.  Why don't people understand I lost my baby?  I lost everything that consumed my thoughts for seven weeks.  We SO wanted this baby and were looking so forward to having the baby bean join our family.  Now I just have a bloated, empty belly, that I am not supposed to talk about. UGGGGHHHHH.

Sad Day

I woke up this moring with excruciating pain/cramps.  I began bleeding pretty heavily.  I tried to remain calm I woke Jeff at about 2:15.  We called the doctor at 2:30.  The doctor basically told me that there was nothing that they could do until Tuesday.  For the pain, I could just take Tylenol. 

I did finally fall back to sleep about 4-ish.  They had horrible cramping until 9:30 this morning.  I have passed some major clots and had quite  bit of bleeding.  

So now we lick our wounds and will start trying again - hopefully I will be pregnant again soon.

Nothing like an afternoon at the ED

I woke up today and went to my parent's house to clean, then came home and rested and made chocolate chip cookies.  I was getting ready for church and went to the bathroom and when I wiped there was more blood there than ever before.  I am sure I panicked but they said to go to the ED if the bleeding got worse or if there were cramps.  I am not cramping.  We got there and they did an ultrasound and really couldn't tell us much.  They couldn't see the baby or the baby's heartbeat.  The doctor said that their machines aren't as good as the doctors and it also depends on the way the baby is positioned.  They did say that my cervix is closed, so that is good as it shows that I am not actively miscarrying.

I am supposed to rest until I see the doctor...UUUGGGHHHHHHH!

You know how you just have a feeling about things?  Like intuition or premonition...I just feel like this baby isn't going to make it.  I am trying so hard to be positive, but I feel like I have to proctect myself and my heart.  I had a horrible dream last week that I miscarried and I am trying to prepare myself for the u/s on Thursday.  I just feel like there won't be a viable baby anymore.

Jeff and I have chatted about it and we will just try again.  We will have a baby. I did make the decision that I would be transferring doctors.  I am just not very happy with the way I have been handled at my current doctor.  I am not one to easily switch doctors but I think it is necessary.

First Ultrasound - 6/30/11

Yesterday morning at 8:00 AM was the day I had been waiting for for years and years or so it seemed!  We got to the doctor's office at 7:55 and were quickly called back for the Ultrasound.  It was a transvaginal u/s so well, that was fun.  She told me I was measuring small...at like 5 weeks 2 days.  She said that the gestational sac and yolk was there as well as a sweet little flutter of a heartbeat.  It was so exciting.  Because the measuring is behind, I will have another u/s next Thursday at 6 weeks 2 days.  My due date will then probably change to 2/25/11.  Next week we should be able to get a heart rate which is what I am really looking forward to hearing. 

I don't understand the 2 week difference.  I have my dates because yes, you guessed it I charted everything.  Whatever, as long as the baby is healthy, that is fine by me!

UPDATE:  I called my doctor's office because I am an annoying patient.  I wanted reassurance that all is well.  The second u/s is for dating because there is a discrepancy between dates.  We should be ble to get the heartrate and the nurse has assurred me that there is nothing to worry about!  AMEN!!

Rhogam

I had a tiny, very pale spot of blood when I wiped yesterday.  Naturally I panicked.  I called the doctors office and was told that unless it got worse or the cramping was severe to call immediately.  They did recommend that I come in for an injection of Rhogam.  I flipped again as I didn't know what my blood type was negaitive.  I know that the injection is important if we are planning to have another baby.  (My great aunt was able to fairly easily have her first child and then had numerous miscarriages)  I certainly don't want to have to go through that heartache, if I don't have to.  So I went in and got the Rhogam injection.  It is given in the booty.  Honestly, it didn't hurt. 

I didn't have any other spotting yesterday.

This morning, I had once again an ever so slight pinkish tinge when I wiped.  I WILL NOT panic.  I know that the doctor office will tell me it is normal for some women...blah, blah, blah.  Ultrasound is in less than 24 hours...not that I am counting!

6 weeks 6 days!

Okay, so I am trying VERY hard to not worry and put the Baby Bean in God's hands.  I was able to work today and the day flew by...I hope time flies until Thursday at 8am.  Each time I start to worry, I pray...I have been praying quite a bit since I got off work!

Hopefully I will do a belly shot this week and start posting.  My belly is getting big!

six weeks, four days

Well, I hit 6 weeks on Tuesday.  I am feeling pretty good, tired, but good.  I have my ultrasound this coming Thursday and I really can't wait.  I m so scared that something is wrong.  I really haven't had morning sickness.  I am actually feeling good.  My friend had an her first u/s yesterday and they say nothing.  She has to have a D&C on Monday. 

After hearing this news, I went to the dollar store and bought $1.00 pregnancy tests.  I thought they would be reassuring but really they aren't I took one this morning and yes there were two lines but the test line was much lighter than the control.  In the directions it states that the test line may not be as dark.  I also didn't use first morning urine.  So now I fret.

I am so scared that I am going to have the u/s on Thursday and there is going to be nothing there.  I wish I could walk in somewhere and get an u/s today.  I know that stressing doesn't help me or the baby, but I just can't help it.  I am so excited and SO scared right now. 

If you think of it could you please add me to your prayers...a safe and healthy 34 weeks.

First appointment

Today I had my first appointment at my doctors office.  I met with a NP, who was wonderful.  She answered all my questions.  She was very patient with me.  I am 5 weeks 2 days.  I have my first ultrasound in two weeks and see the doctor two weeks later.  Apparently, due to my advanced maternal age, I will go to a high risk doctor at sixteen weeks - that is when they do the anatomy scan!  If everything is okay I will go back to my regular doctor.

I am still running...Planning another run in the morning.  Happy Healthy 35 more weeks!

Week Three in pictures!

Week 3

Ogden Newspapers Half Marathon 5/28/2011

Race Day!

Jeff and I woke up at 4:30 and I started getting ready...Race skirt, red sleeveless top. I put my socks, shoes, visor and racebelt in a bag to put on later. We made a pit stop at DD for coffee and breakfast sandwiches. Then we started our drive to Wheeling.

We stopped at Jeff's parents to pick up Cindi, Derek and Amanda. WOW! I have a race crew!!! We headed into Wheeling. They dropped me off at the corner and I went to the start and tried to find a 'real' bathroom. No such luck! I was able to see where the water stations and the first aid stations were!

The time had come...The start of the race.

Jeff and Derek were right at the start...I missed them...but they got my picture!

We made the run basically around the block...I saw them at mile 2. I handed off two of my water bottles. {note: frozen water bottles are heavy!}

Then I headed out toward - THE HILL!

THE HILL Began at mile 4 and never freaking stopped. As I was approaching THE HILL, I looked up at fellow runners. There was not one person running. I started the 1:1 plan. It worked well, mentally I was not ready for a hill of that magnitude. I did manage to pass people along the way...I didn't let anyone pass me. At the top of the hill I really just wanted to stop! I knew Jeff and crew were just past mile 7. I knew I could restock water!

So, mile 7 done...8,9,10. Mile 11 was another hill. Then mile 12 was downhill!!!! YEAH! I felt my strength come back. RUN!

Oh, happy day! Another Half Marathon in the books. Another lesson learned..no to start training for AKRON!

Week 4

Yesterday was week 4 of the pregnancy.  So far, I am just really tired, really thirsty and constantly peeing.

Tonight we are going to tell my parents of the NEWS!  YEAH!  I really need to get some pictures up here!

Run

Yesterday, Meghan and I ran 6.5 miles.  I use the term ran loosely.  We did about 3.5-4 running and the rest walking.  Going to work on running slower so I can keep going! 

Oh my, Oh my goodness! {UPDATED}

Naturally, I couldn't wait until tomorrow to test and I did the Pee On A Stick (POAS).  I am pretty certain I am pregnant.  If my little bean sticks, my estimated Due Date is February 14, 2012.  A little point of interest, when my mom was pregnant with me I was due on February 14 as well.  I came early, a surprise for everyone!

My prayer right now is to make sure the little bean is sticky and the test gets darker.

Another prayer not related to pregnancy is for Jeff.  He had a job interview last week and received a phone call yesterday from the guy and he said he had made a decision and would call him back today.  Jeff is going to call him this morning! 

Lots of positive activity!

{UPDATE} I called the doctor and they got me right in to have blood drawn.  VERY EXCITING!!!  Jeff didn't get the job.  Bummer, but such positive other news.  The doctor's office is supposed to call me hopefully tomorrow but maybe not until Monday!

Half Marathon

I completed the half marathon last Saturday..I wonder if there was a little bean running with me!  I can test in 2 days!!!

Two Week Waiting

I am three DPO and I am trying to patiently wait.  According to the earliest tests I can test next Thursday.  We shall see.  I hope I can wait that long.  If we are pregnant my due date will be 2/14/12, which ironically was my mom's due date with me!

I am running a half marathon tomorrow so I am hoping that baby will have some hardware at birth!!!

Ogden Half Marathon

This weekend is the half marathon.  I am a bit nervous because of all the hills, but I know I can do it.  I wonder if I am pregnant and if a little bean will be joining me on the run!  I would love nothing more for baby bean to have some race medals in his/her room when born!  Race report will come either Saturday or Sunday.

This week...

has been a bit disheartening.  I thought I had some spotting.  I was praying it was implantation bleeding.  I now know it was not.  I started my period.  My body is still getting used to not being on the pill.  So, hopefully everything is regulated and a baby will start growing soon. 

Mother's Day

It is Mother's Day and I wish I could say I was an expecting mom.  Unfortunately this year again I am not.  Hopefully this time next year I will either have a baby or be expecting a baby. 

Half Marathon

I signed up to runthe Ogden Half Marathon.  The question is will baby get his/her first medal?  Six weeks away...It could happen!

Ovulation

So since trying to conceive, I have been reading a TON about ovulation and ovulation kits...I am baffled.  Well, not really, I am just surprised about how much I didn't know about my body.  Afterall, I have had it for 40 years.  I thought I had figured it out...well sort of.  Then this baby-making comes along and I am in a different frame of mind...no caffeine, limit sugar, no soda, no alcohol.  Geez. 

The odds of conceprtion in the first month of trying is slim, but wouldn't that be great?  I mean, I could have a New Year's Baby!  Guess we have to wait a couple of weeks to find out since my ovulation tracker tells me I am not fertile right now...somehow I ovulated and I missed it!

Officially Trying

I have been taking my basal temp for a few weeks now.  Based on this freaking charting, I should be ovulating anytime now.  So, we will be gettin busy if you know what I mean!

I scheduled a prenatal appointment with my ob/gyn.  I thought with being on the pill for, ahem, close to 20 years, It might be a good idea.  Even though I have been off the pill, for a couple of weeks.  I am also a wee bit concerned with the whole chicken pox idea. You see, I have never had them.  I received the varicella vaccine and when we tested my titres it showed I had less than the normal immunity.  Interesting, no?

I also got new running shoes that I plan to break in, hopefully this afternoon and then each day this weekend.  I am still planning to do the half marathon in WV the end of May.  I am also hopeful that I will be able to do the half in Akron the end of September.  (my plan, is to run as long as possible when when pregnant)  If pregnant while doing these races, the baby's room would have a few race medals!

So, that is my update!

So, about me

If you are one of the 10 people who read my other blog you know I am a marathon runner. I love the distance.  I love the freeing feeling, I love the challenge, I love the aches and pains.  Sick, maybe.  But if you are a long distance runner you get it.  I know you do.

So, I 2011, has been a BIG year for me.  I turned 40 in February, then I got married in March, now we are trying to have a baby. Since I don't want to bore my friends and family (and add extra stress to my life) I thought I would blog all my found knowledge.

I am also planning to run a half marathon in May and possibly a full marathon in September.

So, I had my first cycle after stopping the pill.  (Based on research, this is a very good time for me to get pregnant at 40, for younger people this is not an optimal time)  I have been taking my basal temperature each morning so I can begin to track ovulation. 

If nothing else, we will have fun 'trying'!