So far this year isn't going so hot. I guess, I should be happy that in the snow storm I have run 3 times this year. I did get my Cycle Day 3 labwork done (waiting for results). I am still scheduled to get more labwork done after I ovulate. The HSG test cannot get scheduled for this cycle. This is the test I have been trying to get done since October. This time there is no radiologist who is able to assist on the procedure. I am very upset by this and after shedding some tears, I am trying to pick myself back up.
It is SO hard with Jeff gone Monday morning through Friday evenings. I miss him even if we just sit on our couches and watch TV together at least we are TOGETHER. Last night I came home from running, took a shower and sat by myself until I decided to just go to bed to watch TV. It is so lonely.
I am really struggling with the fact that I should be having a baby in six weeks instead of still trying to get pregnant. I am still not 'over' losing the baby. Apparently, everyone things I should be fine and dandy, but I am not, maybe I would feel better if I were pregnant again, but maybe not. I am still mourning the loss of our first baby.