Last week when I was sitting and fretting in the emergency room I was reading e-mails and trying my best to keep it together. I did have a couple of meltdowns as the people in the ER were not exactly the most personable AT. ALL. Apparently, my dr in Cleveland had to demand them to give me an ultrasound...eh, whatever. It all worked out.
Anyway, I went off on a tangent. While I was reading my e-mails I got one from Sarah's Laughter. It is a daily devotion for women going through infertility. I am still reading them as I find them very positive. So, last Wednesday. The Bible verse that was discussed was Proverbs 3:5-6. This verse has been my mantra throughout this LONG process. After reading that, I was reminded to trust HIM. Put my FAITH in HIM. I immediately felt a calmness. I know it will be okay.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
and he will make your paths straight.
Tomorrow is my first dr appointment with my new OB down here. I am hopeful that I will be able to hear the baby's heartbeat. I will be perfectly happy with just seeing my baby and knowing he is okay. I am prepared for 31 more weeks of bedrest if that is what is necessary. I am good with seeing a high risk specialist. I have heard varying stories about the SCH and some are immediately sent to a high risk, some are not...seeing that I have 'advanced maternal age', two cysts, the subchlorionic hemorrhage and the fertilized egg that didn't implant...I have a whole lot going on in a very small space!
Next week I will start the mandatory "Pregnancy Week by Week" with picture...I will be 10 weeks!
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